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08 October 2010 @ 02:38 pm
Welcome to leitoph, woof!
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Say yow to MAXX, my wonderful Golden mix. He's not as friendly as most Retrievers are,
but he makes a good guard dog, and is a sweet companion to the people close to him :)


This livejournal is a memento of different things and thoughts mostly revolving around the JPop idol group NEWS; especially its youngest member,  the shitty Tegoshi Yuya. Well, you'd instantly know that this is a fandom account, and a nice one at that. I am a blogger and I spend most of the time being an analytical, rant-all-ramble-on fangirl!

But I do not post regularly. I admit it's much nicer to use social media which is more practical, particular, and gives people chances to be famous and viral! Not that I'm giving hints that I want to be famous and viral... but yeah I do heheh *insert cool sunglasses emoji*

As for the 'journal' aspect, at first this site was treated like a diary (and it still is, at times). However, the things I prioritize posting now are music reviews, or any reviews, as long as they don't get far from the purpose of this blog.


The purpose of this blog are my fandoms. I am a very Tegoshi-biased fangirl but I can get gaga over NEWS anytime (music reviews aside, I love any discussions about all the members!). I also have/had a couple of posts about KARA, Avatar the Last Airbender, and Messi from FC Barcelona.

Along the years, I've gained and lost fandoms; some faves are still faves, some remained as memories and many I have yet to explore. This journal has been a partial witness to my fandom growth and changes. Here are my present fandoms, updated 2016:

Panic! At The Disco*
(*I became a fan months after this update~)

This is to give you an idea what I might be blogging about at the time of this update. Oh, but I'm really Tegoshi biased, I cannot ensure anything but him alone! *hmm, that sounded life-threatening tho hahaha*

To put it nicely, I cannot guarantee anything but the music reviews and Tegoshi-related ramblings and appreciation posts.


Tegoshi-related ramblings and appreciation posts. That's what the blogger is about… in the fandom world. Otherwise, I am a typical ambivert who sways between loving the spotlight, the loud giggles in the crowd and carefree proclamations; and being a loner, stuttering as I speak, and fearing the human race. I have a keen interest in Psychology as long as its not too Science-y, and Philosophy as deep as my brain could handle :p I self-study Astrology (I’m telling you, it’s more than just the Zodiac Signs). I hate sleeping and if only it’s possible I could stay awake 24/7.

I am a musician. I formally studied Music and performing. I excel in the music part (my teachers and classmates say I do LOL) but the performing part is not apparent because I lack self-confidence—jeez, I’m soooo awkward on stage. I freeze in middle of performances. I dunno why I still can't overcome this. T^T

Anyway, the thing I do best is singing at weddings. This is my comfort zone. When ya’ll gonna be married please invite me as your wedding singer~ although I just realized I’m saying this on a fandom blog and of course you already have your bias’ bandmates as your pick. :p Invite me nevertheless ;)

There you go, I think I said a lot about myself I’ve never elaborated before.
TLDR; look at the pie chart for easy reference! :p

If you read till the end, why, thank you! And please leave a comment, my dog will be happier if you do.
Mood: fullfull
On track:: 넌 is 뭔들 - MAMAMOO
18 December 2020 @ 10:53 pm
Lately I've been making icons (and other edits) but sadly misplacing them. ><
So I have to make a masterpost for all my graphics. I hope I can always update!
note: because this is a masterpost, not all stuff here are NEWS-related (though most of 'em are~)

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Feel free to grab; credits are appreciated!
If the f-o banners are too big for your journal, you can always resize the pics to your preferred size ^_^
Mood: cheerfulcheerful
On track:: Pokoponpekorya - NEWS
09 March 2018 @ 08:44 pm
NEWS in QLAP April 2018 issue. (credit: love_kt_ms02)

I didn't have a 2017 year-ender or a 2018 year-starter LJ entry, when ironically, I wrote a lot of lists. To-do lists are getting consistent, Dreams list are becoming more specific and attainable, and making little Fandom lists is quite enjoyable after all the pressure of serious writing.

This is one of those little lists. Based on combined personal preference and the songs' importance and/or relevance to the fandom, here are NEWS' best singles B-side tracks, since 2012.

We can't fit all the years from NEWS' debut in 2003 if we want to finish this quick. So, go get your mp3 players or CDs and rediscover the beauty of these B-sides:

TRAVeLiNG (KAGUYA, 2015) - I dislike this song. But its quirkiness is unforgettable, lyrics are pure fun and it's one of the first and clearest reminders that NEWS was serious when they cued that their music would go the edgier distance.

Butterfly (KAGUYA, 2015) - Coming from the same single as TRAVeLiNG, this song, on the other hand, is one of my ultimate favorites! Koyama loves it too, probably more than I do.

IZANAIZUKI -Represent NEWS mix- (EMMA, 2017) - So far, there are four remakes. I can't judge which remake is the best, though we can tell which stands out based on the degree of difference from the original, and this one wins. Ad libs, anyone?

Distance (恋を知らな君へ , 2016) - A song clearly intended for international fans. It might not have the same appreciation as the other 'fan' songs, but the skit on SCP makes up for it.

madoromi (LPS, 2018) - NEWS' expertise lies in ballads. This is one of those with an almost-perfect execution. I chose this to be here over Wasurenagusa (see Honorabable Mentions) because personally, it makes me more sentimental.

NEWSICAL (LPS, 2018) - It might not be popular as a B-side track than it is popular as NEWS' self-produced musical; still, it is their prized work, something that goes beyond a B-side.

ANTHEM (四銃士 , 2015) - It got this high because of Club World Cup 2015 and 2016. Used as the theme for two straight years, beating all of NEWS' other soccer songs!

SEVEN COLORS (ONE -for the win-, 2014) - B-side with a PV. Higher than ANTHEM because it was more monumental during the time of its use. And it contains Tegoshi's highest belted note ever.

Sweet Martini (チュムチュム , 2015) - The majority has spoken about our love for this song. Ranked 1 in songs we wanted to see NEWS perform, we really love the sensuality it brings, without having to go through the embarrassment brought about by NEWS' more explicit songs.

Before revealing the #1, here are some Honorable Mentions that deserve their spot, just outside the top 10:

  • 勿忘草 (Wasurenagusa) (KAGUYA, 2015) - NEWS members can actually sing. For a proof, you need a simple, unsynthesized ballad such as this.

  • Snow Dance (EMMA, 2017) - Another 'modern' on the list, just a little polishing and this Future House track could be mistaken as a Jonas Blue unreleased song in collaboration with an idol group.

  • Hello (WORLD QUEST, 2012) - The very first 4-nin ballad, it held what hope fans had for the restarting NEWS, vice versa.

  • FLYING BIRD (ONE -for the win-, 2014) - Underrated pop-rock track that's just plainly underrated that's why I included it here.

  • SPEAKER (四銃士 , 2015) - Ask about my personal B-side ranking and this song shoots up to the Top 5. I have an image of this song as the perfect B-side: easygoing yet somehow emotional, modern party anthem.

フルスイング (Full Swing) (チャンカパーナ , 2012) - NEWS' fight song. Would have taken over Chankapaana in a heartbeat, it was just that they chose the catchier track for an A-side; but for a B-side, it has fandom-wide merit. Again, NEWS' fight song (Along with U R Not Alone--but that'll be on another list!) Music and lyrics well-represent NEWS in all its past, present, and future. It is iconic, a story in itself, the A of all Bs!
09 March 2018 @ 07:14 pm
I did review NEVERLAND album. Really. It concluded to a half-baked work, with some details neatly in place then chunks of phrases huddled under bullet points just to look outlined. After a year I ditched the writing effort, and it's sad because it's my favorite album! (so far. There are news of a 2018 album that I can't say as promising as the 2017 and 2016 ones, if based on the title--"EPCOTIA"--let's leave it at that.)

But there's no reason to not write about NEWS' 1st single of 2018. This year is the group's 15th anniversary! Let's have an early celebration, in the form of indulging in love, peace and smiles.

Title: LPS
Date: January 17, 2018
Tracks: 5

L-R: Regular Edition and Two Limited Editions jacket covers

General comments

LPS stands for "Love Peace Smile", if the paragraph above did not give enough clue. The single is both expected and unexpected in its 5-track content, with the first and second track used in NEWS' biggest self-produced project yet; then one new song in the form of a ballad, and two old song remakes which could possibly cover much of their old discography soon with every release.

NEWS' musical identity is invested in concepts--hence, their own description of their songs having a "strong worldview". LPS the single, although the title track is rhythmically weak, demonstrates NEWS' mastery of showing the strong worldview image. The tracklist has songs gentle to somber (with the exception of idiosyncratic NEWSICAL) yet NEWS made a twist by using edgy jacket photos--just when you thought they'll use the mirror costumes in NEWSICAL which are more suitable for the theme, they instead invested in spunkier visuals.

The music video is an outdoor one I am always wishing for (it's been a while since the last!). LPS is one of NEWS' simplest PVs and the only thing you can boast about it is how it was shot in just one take. Or you can boast about how beautiful it actually is. Beside the sea at sleepy dawn, it enfolds intimacy not found in their other videos no matter how demonstrative the concepts and choreo have been.

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Wrapping it up:

I honestly think that the single is mediocre, despite my high praises for most of the tracks. Save for NEWSICAL which is marginally different from the rest of the package, LPS the single is truly pleasant; but if you're into bombs like I do, we'll have to wait till the next release. Usually, I give high ratings based on power/impact. I give LPS a middle ranking just because the "power" aspect is weak, but its tracklist is really great--one of NEWS' best without even having to try!

Rating: 3.5 out of 5
Mood: peacefulpeaceful
On track:: LPS - NEWS
29 November 2017 @ 07:10 pm
It started as wishful thinking between me and dhes19. Each time we met, there were always small talks of what-ifs that included organizing a fan event.

This November, thanks to the big help of our co-organizers tegophilic, Kibuta and Sol, with contributions from local and international fans, our dream to host an event did happen!

Due to content involving several people which calls for privacy--and I don't want this post to be friends-only hehe--I decided not to share everything (you can see more photos of the event on my Facebook album and on the event page)

The poster promoting the event

There was only more than a month of planning so we had to take things in a fast pace and not expect too much. Again, the big help of the co-organizers made things smoother and a lot easier. We wouldn't have plenty of pretty giveaways, prizes, and sponsors, if not for them ♥

Venue: Yuchi's Coffee Shop
Time: 1-5pm

Two of the organizers (ate Diane and Kibuta) headed early to the venue as they were in charge of the material aspect of the event, while the two of us (me and Dhes) who fetched the attendees from north and south pick-up points became the event's MCs. Sol unfortunately wasn't able to attend, but for a very good reason: she was on an overseas trip.

MC-ing is not as easy as Keiichan shows it to be xD

The party started almost two hours late! We had to make big adjustments to the programme. Otherwise, it was a successful party, full of fun and freebies.

We didn't get to play many of the games in our list because of the program delay but those activities were the notable ones. From an icebreaker game of answering fandom-related questions based on color of lollipop picked, there was a guessing game, an adaptation of the "Hep Hep Hooray" which we called Tei Tei Po, and trivia quiz. The highlight of the event was probably the monomane as it got everyone cheering for the ~abashed~ participants in front. It was worthy, though!

One of the event's (well, the venue's) amenities was the face printed on the drink. Along with the food, it's the reason why the event ticket was expensive. Oiii that's a secret--and it's not a secret anymore xD

The raffle draw was my favorite part. Every single attendee got a major prize, to top off the already-bountiful mini prizes distributed during the games.
We wrapped up the party with photo ops and recording a short video message to NEWS. Tei~!

I was a little disappointed with the limited time we had watching Tegoshi/NEWS media on the TV, but then, maybe that's where the idea of NEVERLAND concert viewing came in during our afterparty chat. If NYUSU.ph won't do it, there's a possibility that our team will! ♥
Mood: bouncybouncy
On track:: PERFECT HUMAN (LIVE) - RADIO FISH & NEWS collaboration
11 November 2017 @ 09:18 pm

I sadly can't make a longer separate post here on time, but I don't want to leave my LJ blank on his special day. Below is the link to one of my Tumblr posts:

I... have actually been emotional for days now. It's overwhelming on many levels, words can't even explain. ;o; Congratulations on your 30th year of existence, Tegoshi!


(credits for these photos: inala, newsnoai, graphicabyss, weibo, twitter)

Would you mind a bit of fictional backdrop?:p

Long ago... Not so long ago... Just about the years of this millenium, Masuda Takahisa, the prince of yellow sunshine and gyozas, has been wearing the saaaame crown for yeeeears. Of course, crowns don't just "change" unless you change status, but in this kingdom--magical it secretly is, there is an abundance of crowns!! Prince Masuda, however, sticks to his crown; he'd have it adjusted sometimes, change the color, add or subtract gems, and at rare occasions he wears it differently, but it was discernibly the same crown and his subjects have been watchful about it. He's their prince, after all.

One day, he gathered his people on the tribune of his palace. There was nothing to say--as soon as subjects came in from the heavy, stylish metal door, they were filled with confusion and awe! Crows crowed, chickens stayed in the air and pigs talked... What happened to our prince? HE'S WEARING A DIFFERENT CROWN, WHAT THE FLOCK

Oops, not that crown, but that crown under that crown.:)

We are all subjects of Massu's kingdom--okay, let's jump back from AU--we are all part of the fandom and therefore we've had something said at least once in regards to his new hairstyle. We were shocked, but weren't shook with his new hair as much as the fact that he never reverted it since that episode. He decided to keep it, for the reason that he actually likes it!

What do you think? I am loosely watchful over hairstyle changes because I experienced how the fandom reacted when, years earlier, Tegoshi transformed into a blond--it wasn't something that made everyone upset, but it affected a number of Tegoshi fans enough that they withdrew from the fandom (they didn't leave because of the blond hair alone; instead, the blond was the 'trigger' that made them realize Tegoshi wasn't the same anymore.)

*insert moment of silence T^T*
*and a blond Tegoshi just because :3*

Massu's an entirely different story: it was only his hair that changed. Yet, Massu's hair isn't only hair!!! His hair is one of his trademarks, the thing that makes Massu, Massu™. Throughout the years his hairstyles underwent little and temporary changes; the red hair in 2011 being the boldest, but it didn't look quite out of the box because prior to that he was already experimenting with colors and highlights.

Change became real when the newest style revealed something we've rarely seen before: Massu's forehead. It's the equivalent of topless Massu, which we also rarely see because macho guy is a conservative idol, although we know he rocks the half-nude. (EDIT: YES HE ROCKS THE HALF-NUDE. GO SEE IT AT THE END OF THE PICSPAM)

And that's why, even if his change in style isn't an indicator of a major character change like Tegoshi's, many fans won't probably get used to it. Will you? Or have you gotten used to it by now?

Do you like Massu's new hairstyle or not?(Answering 'no' does not mean you're already bashing, it's called preference xD)

I... answered... yes. This may be odd but I love his new style even if it sometimes looks like it came out straight from the 90's--especially when it's parted in the middle (and that's the exact reason my sister says no!)

I think it suits the shape of his face and the forehead peek is creative this way, rather than trying a mohawk (which would be awful) or plainly growing out the fringe. It also doesn't look very outdated because of his hair color. And I like how he could do many twists to it! Like, it added to the fashionista vibe Massu's been giving off through his stylish garments and ecletic accesories.

I'd honestly say that this change took away the forever-youthful image of Masuda Takahisa. When he stopped looking the same from baby era, to junior era, even to Quartetto era (basically in all these years there were no signs of aging!!), the illusion that he never ages is now so effin' crushed. In just a matter of a new hairstyle, he visibly matured. No more bebi buta Masshuuu (๑´・_・`๑) But, the guy is already 31! If matured-looking Masuda is the new thing, I'm glad this happened. The transition from cute to hot is so incredible any other member wouldn't be able to beat it.

I'm assuming you skipped all these ramblings above for the picspam hehehehe~ Without further ado, here are my fave Massu new look/new hair/parted hair photos:

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Belated happy 31st birthday Massu! This wasn't supposed to be a birthday post, but there's no better time to do it ;)

24 June 2017 @ 12:02 pm

Just when I thought I'm past the habit of making anniversary posts because I've ran out of ideas to write, and tbh my yearly contents were all the same, my 7th year in the fandom is the obvious oddity. Even last year's start of fangirling over Panic! At The Disco pales to how shook my emotions are this year. (And did you know that Western Pop music completely took me back into its arms? *gasp! and more gasps ala Selena Gomez*)

But this blog is mainly dedicated to NEWS, and at most times, when I say "fandom" I automatically mean NEWS. I also know you came to this post for NEWS so yes I'll give you NEWS. Leave the cake at my door. :p

However, inadvertent it always is (no, don't believe that--I've always done it on purpose), this blog post will focus on Tegoshi. Not only because he's my bias. If my last LJ entry talked about Koyama not onlybecause it was his birthday but for the troubles he was facing that time, it's unfortunately the same with Tego. Only it can be considered worse. Great man meets great fallback. World eats boy. (At this point I'm talking not in a Fan sense, though the next paragraphs are guaranteed to be more fangirl-sounding... and emotional. I guess I'm still warming up xD)

First things first. I can't believe I have spent 7 years in the fandom. That's 1/3 of my life on Earth! I never forgot the day I fell for subgroup Tegomass for their music, and how the curiosity for the main group NEWS turned into something big, that less than a year afterwards, nobody could calm me down as I cried over Tegoshi Yuya for no reason other than I was just  a fan.

It's not that hard to accept things. I can proudly say that I'm an obsessive-but-not-possessive fangirl. While I can provide a blueprint of "how to snatch Tegoshi and lock him up in my house" (jk. jk. jooooke), I won't do that, because what will happen to my gazillion Tego OTPs? I believe that the more, the merrier, so it warms my heart seeing Tegoshi gain wider fame and more fans. He got out of the shadows--that's the secret reason I got over RyoPi withdrawal that fast. EviL LaUgH harharharharhar

In spite of my extremely Tegoshi-centric fangirling during the first years, I couldn't envisage him in a successful future without the rest of the group. NEWS worked as a team and they became STRONG AF, INSEPARABLE AF, LOVABLE AF; showed they are ARTISTIC/MUSICAL AF, and most importantly: HOT AF!! (lol this makes me sound perv af) For the hundreds of thousands of fans, NEWS was/is why we love NEWS. I get more offended when NEWS is being targeted than when it's Tegoshi alone. The group is my treasure, I've expressed a lot of positivity about them. It's all genuine. Side by side, my admiration for NEWS grew big and my attachment to Tegoshi grew deep, vice versa.

I wanted this entry to be thoughtfully detailed by making it a Fandom History post (a.k.a. my fangirl journey 2010-present! I started to write regular journals coinciding with the time I started to be a NEWS fan so yes I can chart my fangirl timeline) but that wasn't what I originally meant when I said I'll post my anniversary post early; besides, my different accounts dedicated to this crazy roller coaster of emotions lifestyle have spoken way louder than any single illustrative post. Secret # 2: I've had many NEWS-related accounts/blogs and some of them gained prominence in the fandom without revealing I am behind those ;) What are these accounts? Secret~

Anyway, added to the fact that NEWS fandom is collectively peaceful, because NEWS love surprising us fans, the excitement was always there and it was nearly impossible that the feelings will die out. This place has become such a huge part of my life--more than the longevity, although I consider it too because rarely I get attached to something--it's the heart and mind investment that counts. The dedication. The passion. Here's one more secret: I silently judged those who left the fandom. I was really devoted to NEWS that I didn't understand why the other 'devotees' could just leave like that, especially in the recent years, when the group is at its peak in activity. Why abandon when everything finally feels right? The more the merrier was my philosophy when it comes to this, so when anybody stopped being a fan, I took it to heart.

2016 suddenly became a turning point. Maybe because I was subconsciously stressed about entering adulthood, or maybe it was P!ATD bursting the bubble that's been long enclosed in NEWS, or maybe it was caused by my forming doubts on Tegoshi's attitude and behavior (more on the next paragraphs) that I fathomed the feeling of decreasing enthusiasm. I realized that the level of love could stay the same, but you can love that thing andnot be overly passionate about it. Furthermore, my disappointment over leaving fans was gone, and I learned that many of those who left didn't actually stopped loving NEWS; they just stopped at acting like fans and doing fan things.

To comprehend these... It felt liberating, yet it bothered me somehow. I was still very attached to Tegoshi and the fandom, and the dwindling of passion was conficting with the strong feelings I still have inside.

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Things are getting back to normal. 2017 is generally delightful for NEWS, with NEVERLAND album being their most musically daring album yet, the 3-month concert tour comes to an emotional finish. Koyama is again chosen for 24hrTV. There are new J-web corners. SCP's doing great; they've got more time for group bonds, and a simultaneous boom in indivudual/duo shows and projects. The members' relationship are stronger than ever (generic statement but very true, they're stronger than ever). Fandom's turning 15 next year! Once a dream, now the norm, NEWS is heading to an amazing direction. If Koyama and Tegoshi's rumors have one positive implication, it is the fact that NEWS is now worthy to be publicized with that kind of attention. While not exactly pleasant, it's an indicator that NEWS has definitely piqued the consciousness of virtually anyone in Japan.

And there goes my ichiban. All I've really wanted for him is to be a good person. It is a blanket term because 'good' can mean a lot of things. Obviously, I don't expect him to become an altruist or give up his current lifestyle. I don't want him to tone down. I just hope he'd be more mindful, with the personal potential he's got, and the kind of focus he utilizes to achieve things... He could be a reckless idol yet a responsible person at the same time. How about inspiring? He already is. Just his presence can make his fans dream big, think big. You've heard him speak seriously, it's almost enlightening. Everyone could muse about his face, his voice, his physical/mental/emotional strength and abilities. The catch is, inspiration can't be seen, so only us who stand by him can understand how clear an inspiration Tegoshi radiates.

It's theoretically hard to have intense feelings for someone who doesn't even know you, but if that intensity has found its way to your system, it turns into faith. I'm proud that I support Tegoshi, in a myriad of ways and in the brightest and darkest of days, such as this. I want to say it's Love but the term is always debatable in celebrity-fan situations... However, even some people in actual relationships don't think about their partners in depth and isn't concerned much with the character, the potential, the good and the bad, and how things could be in the long run. Maybe I am just the overthinker kind, but with all that's embraced is it still wrong to say that I love Tegoshi? I believe that these seven years are love, regardless of distance, regardless of not knowing everything. In spite of my often exaggerations and misjudgements. The faith is there. I love Tegoshi Yuya and I love NEWS. I may not be as enthusiastic as before but this love has become a constant thing--it never ends.

One last secret: When I saw the photos and reports of Tegoshi crying at the con, I cried for him at least twice a day for five days straight. "Apathetic", huh :p Not really relevant to everyone but to this post! xD Happy 7th anniversary to me :)


*It's my first time to post through LJ mobile which I think is a huge disadvantage because of limited controls, and I have no idea how it would appear on browsers. Pls bear if the post turns out cluttered*

Koyama is now 33 years old and three years in his 30's say not so much appearance-wise. Unlike people whose face don't age, Koyama's face gets youngeras he ages! Still, there's lot of unspoken words about this person; he's sometimes taken at face value and for the role he plays in the group: the leader. Undoubtedly true, but Koyama's more than these. He's a newscaster--he's influencial. Among NEWS, he's the one attuned to the pulse of the general public, whether he's ever made it visible or not. This tall dork know what motivates people, and he's glad to be pulled along because he also knows how to pull along, in his own way. In other words, Koyama is secretly a business tycoon. Joke.

The point is, Koyama is smarter and more noble than what he shows to fans. With him, things fall into place. Might as well check yourselves because Koyama must've made you fall under his influence... a good kind of it. *He's a good person so he'll only leave an imprint of good things ;)*

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12 April 2017 @ 05:24 pm

April 12 is rad, astrology says! Technically, my anniversary in the Panic! At The Disco bandom is still 10 days from now, but today marks the exact first year of my rediscovery of the band. What makes it special, it's the frontman of a one-man band's (HAHAHAHAHAHA) date of birth--HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BRENDON BOYD URIE!

(cr: popbuzz)

Happy 30th beeboday. Blessed guy is now 30. /Show praise with your body, stand up, sing Hallelujah. Hallelujah!/ I'm personally excited for what I'll see over the net for Beebo's birthday; P!ATD fans are some of the most creative folks I have ever seen. And lover of memes, as belonging to the lover of memes, emo kids and post-emo kids will always have sarcasm on the upfront. I wanna know why they got me going and it seems I already found one of the answers: memes.

I easily jumped in to the fast-growing fanbase (or BANDwagon, you could say) because of the amount of memes that made me laugh when I started to stan Panic!. Top with Brendon's naturally meme-worthy face, his grandiose expressions and "voice higher than my grades" claims, it was very easy to dig further and further that the memes I saw were already repeating. Then again, P!ATD fandom belongs to the most creative folks I've seen so we don't run out of memes; Brendon himself makes new ones, sadly not through shortlived site Vine but he still makes memes out of his actions, words... and face.

(cr: coupdemain--this was posted only a day ago!)

Of course, it's not all about memes or the laughs factor. It doesn't even comprise half of the reasons why it gets me going. The songs, whether they're Ryan Ross-origins or Brendon Urie-composed (or Dallon, or Jon or Spencer or... Brent?) speak to me until now. It doesn't have to be the lyrics, the music gives me life. But the lyrics are genius too--these had made P!ATD a breakout act in the first place.

Music videos are eccentric, though not ultra-eccentric it loses its 'pop' factor. Brendon said P!ATD is pop, albeit it's also different from a pop band; lol I wouldn't even start discussing what genre Panic! is because Panic! defies genre. What Brendon probably meant by pop is Panic! exists to reach everybody's airwaves by their 'slightly' controversial concepts (1, 2), out of the box lyricism, music adapted from music, and exuberance. My goodness, Brendon's exuberance. *warning, brief mention of bias ahead~* Tegoshi may be hyper but Brendon is HIGHper he might have outdid Johnny's with his backflips. Heck, he outdid most future with his forehead.

*Sorry, this is an inside joke :p*

About the "music adapted from music" part, P!ATD's critics would agree that the band is not big on originality. Every album is inspired by certain artists, like when A Fever You Can't Sweat Out was a product of trying to be different from their Garage Rock neighbors in Las Vegas, it ended up sounding like a Fall Out Boy rehashed. Pretty. Odd. could be mistaken to be a The Beatles demo album. Vices and Virtues was more original, but then it was also similar-sounding with '80s alternative rock. Too Weird To Live, Too Rare To Die! was another attempt to be different, for Panic! to be different from itself and so it contains electronic tracks, akin to underground electronic bands. Death Of A Bachelor was an obvious fusion of Sinatra and Queen--Brendon is proud of imitating his idols, whether critics say he fails or is trying hard.

But you can't really question the originality of Panic!'s music when music is largely sampled especially in the era of today. What they are complaining about, maybe, is the argument that Panic! is and should be an alternative band, not a music act which strives to do metal at one point, and Broadway musical the next. This kind of experimentation should be left to the legends--wait, isn't Beebo already a legend? :p

For the record, Brendon is a drunk legend. He likes beer, vines about beer, includes any kind of hard drinks in his lyrics, etcetera. As long as he knows where to draw the line, and it appears he does, then I'll see beer on every casual video and not make qualms. Brendon has/had ADHD and while conditions are usually not to be thankful for, his own drove him to be the experimental guy, the no-brainer when it comes to new things. Because he believes that Crazy = Genius He has tried playing about 20 instruments. He aquires skills just because. He can do stunts, he jumps from rooftops to pools, he can dance and act (we're just waiting for his big break in Hollywood lol), he can pull off a transvestite, he can make a stadium-full audience laugh for 15 minutes straight. But he doesn't do that, he'll just jump from topic to topic. Most importantly, he can narrate a full rad history even when drunk!

Brendon is legitimately nice. Figuratively, he likes to include everyone in the big tour bus (don't try to crowd him though, he has anxiety) and swim in invisible waters with the sharks until we drown. Or if that is morbid (yeah that is), he just wants everyone to treat each other equally and with respect. He doesn't hide his bold opinions of what's good, bad and dirty, he never holds back calling out the bigots: he has tirades against Trump, against homophobes, against sexists, against bullies, against himself when he was younger, etc. Together with his natural creativity, his good heart makes him a true unicorn (his MBTI is ENFP by the way *o*)

He loves his wife. Brendon and Sarah are #CoupleGoals!!!! In their 8 years of being together and almost 4 years of marriage, Brendon consistently expresses adoration for Sarah, like a true fanboy (awwwwweeee). I mean it ain't the end of all things, though that was his wedding vow :p If I have one wish for Brendon's birthday, it is for their family to stay strong and grow in the years ahead!

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He really is my spirit animal. He has flaws, he had depression, as the youngest he was spoiled, he was rebellious, was a fuccboi in the past and had fought with band members. These don't outweigh the positive things he possess, and the good qualities he evolved to. I love his busy, wandering mind. I love his dedication to music. I love his flamboyance, showing off the stuff he can do, 'cause why not? I love his stand on social issues. I love how he always remind his fans to be fearless and expressive. "You're a treasure, not trash."

Many more fans, especially those who've seen him in real life, would testify how inspiring of a human being Brendon is. In this birthday post, I hope I've condensed everything I know, what I love about him and Panic!, why the person and the band gets me going. Can I say more, I'm ready to go.

Mood: contentcontent
On track:: Ready To Go - Panic! At The Disco